as a social experiment…
I had some of my friends write an obituary for me, heres one that I got back recently-
“Beautiful from the tips of her toes to the depths of her soul.
The best friend anyone could ever wish for.
True till the end, There when Needed.
No questions, Just caring and love.
Compassion was her first language.
If ever there was perfection, It lay in her eyes. In her smile. In the way she carries herself.
Never judging, But accepting.
Selfless, Above all.
You will forever be in my heart. In my mind, And a part of my soul.”
Yes, I am unbelievably touched.
instead…
of writing my papers. i watched the ever so hot show the l word season 5 episode liquid heat.
i seriously love this episode, with its raw and hot sensuality. i can only hope that someday i will have that type of passion in my life. but without all that drama!
one of my friends got engaged to her partner this weekend, and it just got me thinking about the future, and that i really want to settle down. which is weird, because i am such an independent person, i never really see myself with other people.
but i think me being a nanny has been pulling on my settling down strings too. being around kids all day, its weird going home to an empty house. but i still havent met the right woman yet. i mean i met this one girl, but she is so mysterious i dont even know if she is a lesbian.
but who knows what this summer will bring.
a real woman.
has curves. loves her body. has some meat on her bones.
so fuck you to everyone who thinks i should loose weight.
and to select celebrities and models who create an unhealthy body envy from girl around the world.
love who you are. i know i do.
here are some photos to make up for my lack of posting…can’t even keep up with this. what a failure.
day 10.
almost at the half way point! aside from being sick, i’ve noticed i am a lot less moody now. whether that has to do with this cleanse i dont know. but i am starting to think a lot more about relationships. probably because i am writing a narrative essay about love. but in other news…i dont have a social life these days, and when i do go to an event/out its because im helping run it or volunteered for something. arg. but one thing i am very excited about, well a few things, is Star Riders a program for disabled kids and giving them therapy through horses. also my TOMS club is working on t shirt designs for this nation wide competition. the theme: a day with out shoes. who ever wins gets their shirt featured as a shirt for the National Day Without Shoes on April 8th, free shoes for a year, $500 gc for Threadless, annnddd $2k. and we are really excited for that and the variety of events this semester. this semester i am also working on opening a cultural center on our lovely lil campus and i am in the process of ordering international flags for our campus in representation of 1st generation students who have come here from other lands.
oh and im turning 21 this yr, talk about a busy year. one personal goal—do a series of figure studies through the lens of my neglected 5d canon dslr
